A ONE-MAN ARMY

What if an incredibly powerful force, buried for thousands of years, was suddenly discovered, ready to act at your command?

Not too long ago, a group of Chinese farmers stumbled upon what would later be recognized as one of the most remarkable archaeological finds in history. Buried in the region of Xi’an, in Shaanxi province, at the heart of China, they didn’t find an ordinary artifact, an ancient pot, or some old tool. No, they uncovered something far more astonishing – a giant army. An awe-inspiring discovery that would soon capture the world’s attention. While every piece of history has intrinsic value, this discovery was on another level, unmatched in scale and grandeur.

Imagine an army of over eight thousand life-sized soldiers, horses, and chariots, all made from terracotta, perfectly arranged in battle formation, waiting for a command to charge that never came. These soldiers were buried alongside China’s first emperor, Qin Shi Huang, in 210 B.C., to protect him in the afterlife. What makes this discovery even more extraordinary is the detail and individuality of each figure – no two soldiers are the same. Each face, each stance, and every expression were carefully sculpted, capturing the incredible diversity of humanity. And for centuries, they remained hidden from the world, until their discovery in the 1970s, bringing this monumental yet forgotten force back into the light.

This discovery symbolizes the immense, untapped potential that lies within each of us, the hidden strengths and qualities buried deep inside, waiting to be unearthed. Like the terracotta warriors, many of us carry hidden forces that we aren’t even aware of. Many of my patients – and perhaps many of us – struggle with a diminished view of themselves. It’s not that they lack qualities; it’s that these strengths are buried under layers of insecurity, trauma, and difficult life experiences.

These patients go through life unaware of the incredible strengths and abilities they possess. Not only do they ignore them, but they often don’t believe such qualities even exist. This limited self-view leaves them ill-prepared to face life’s challenges with the resources they truly have, resources that could enrich their lives in profound ways.

With this in mind, I’d like to talk about a subject that touches all of us, regardless of age, background, or profession: self-esteem. At its core, self-esteem is how we see and value ourselves. It relates to that inner voice that sometimes whispers, sometimes shouts, our worth as individuals: for some, it’s encouraging and supportive, like a fan pointing out their idol’s strengths; for others, it’s critical, invalidating, and filled with doubt.

Self-esteem is more than just feeling good about yourself. It’s an entire belief system, a fundamental opinion about one’s own worth, abilities, and significance. Having high self-esteem doesn’t mean you think you’re perfect – none of us are. But it does mean you believe in your inherent worth, despite your imperfections. On the other hand, low self-esteem can make a person feel “not good enough,” a belief that can lead them to doubt themselves and their abilities for a lifetime.

Many believe that self-esteem starts to form early, shaped by the people around us and leaning in the direction of the feedback we gather along the way. Positive feedback builds a strong sense of self-worth; negative feedback can create a deep-rooted sense of inadequacy. While I agree that it’s a self-concept shaped by both ourselves and others, I prefer to think that our self-esteem is influenced not so much by what others think of us, but by what we think others think of us – two completely different things. The opinions of others, as we interpret them, are filtered through our own biases, and those filters play a huge role in how we hear feedback, for better or for worse. And this is closely tied to the state of our self-esteem.

Self-esteem doesn’t just shape how we interpret feedback; it also influences the kinds of people we choose to surround ourselves with. Sometimes, we find ourselves clinging to toxic people, with disorganized emotions and dysfunctional lives, simply because we don’t believe we deserve anything better. If I have a poor self-concept, how can I believe I have something good to offer others? The expectations I hold for my relationships are like windows that expose to the outside world exactly how I see myself. In such a mindset, it’s not surprising that psychological suffering is almost inevitable.

Self-esteem, then, is a key marker of our mental health. But how do we build and nurture it? It’s not something we’re born with; it’s something that must be cultivated, like a garden. It requires us to reflect on our strengths, values, and motivations and to consciously acknowledge these qualities. It might sound simple, but some of my patients are paralyzed when asked to list their five main strengths. Life’s weight and personal narratives can make accessing the virtues buried deep inside a difficult and painful learning process. But self-awareness is essential to unlocking our greatest assets, the ones we’ve hidden away in secret for so long.

Standing guard over this place of self-awareness is often our harshest critic, the internal saboteur, always ready to keep us from drawing close to the good things that are rightfully ours. This inner saboteur convinces us that the safest place for us is one of insecurity and doubt. By staying here, we protect ourselves from the disappointment of failure because, in this situation, we never even try to accomplish what we desire. Failure is a luxury for those who dare to win; if I don’t try, I can’t be let down by the result.

Learning to question this saboteur with “Is this really true?” can help reveal that this inner voice often exaggerates or distorts reality. In doing so, we can begin to counter our low self-esteem by replacing negative thoughts with affirmations that validate and support us. Instead of thinking, “I’m terrible at this,” try, “I’m still learning and improving every day.” These small shifts in how we speak to ourselves can slowly transform our self-concept and how we relate to the world, something we call mindset.

When that doesn’t work, because it might seem vague or superficial, we can lean on self-compassion as an ally. Self-compassion means treating ourselves with the same kindness and understanding we’d offer to a friend. So, when we make mistakes, instead of harshly criticizing ourselves, we might say, “It’s okay. Everyone makes mistakes. What can I learn from this?” This approach allows us to embrace our imperfections as part of the human condition, rather than seeing them as signs of personal failure.

Part of self-awareness and self-compassion is allowing ourselves the sometimes-uncomfortable pleasure of feeling happy and satisfied with our small daily accomplishments. Why not celebrate every milestone, no matter how small, that we once thought was out of reach?

As we cultivate our self-esteem, we become more resilient, take more risks, and live each day with greater confidence and joy. Though self-esteem won’t eliminate all human anxieties, it equips us to face life’s challenges more effectively.

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Thinking of the terracotta warriors, I can’t help but wonder how many of us, battling low self-esteem, overlook the vast reserves of strength, discipline, and confidence within. How many of us go through life not knowing we have an entire army ready to support and protect one truly unique and special person: you.

In therapy, as in archaeology, we don’t create new qualities in our patients; we help rediscover what’s already there. Layer by layer, we uncover strengths, resilience, and the capacity to love, create, and live fully.

Just like every one of those terracotta soldiers is unique, so are we. Each of us has something special to offer the world, but we have to be willing to dig deep and discover the treasures within.

Your worth is not defined by how you look, your income, or what others think of you. It’s something real and true, and while life may sometimes obscure it, your value remains, waiting to be rediscovered.

Self-esteem is not a destination but a journey. It requires time, patience, and practice. The more you nurture it, the more your life will reflect it. So today, I encourage you to value yourself a little more, speak to yourself with a little more kindness, and stand up a little taller in your own defense.

The strength you seek resides within you. Allow it to shine.

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